Despite being an adult, I'm unable to keep friendships. I think it might be because of some "subtle" bullying I received at elementary school, but given that was long ago, I can't use that constantly as an excuse. I am able to make friends (sometimes, I still do have trouble reaching out), but I'm unable to keep them. Either they move on or I just sorta ghost them because whenever I have chance at this, I ruin it for myself. I wanted to meet some new people and try again, but then the pandemic started and here I am, not even trying to form friendships with uni classmates. For some reason, the only way I can communicate meaningfully with other people is through online forums.I know I will never be anyone's best friend, but being lonely kinda sucks.