I recently lost my grandma due to cancer and my guinea pig due to unknown reasons. I feel so guilty that I had to do something with his death. I keep going back to yesterday and going through what I did to try and see if I was the cause. I got to say goodbye to my grandma but I feel like I didn’t get to let everything out to her. It hasn’t been the best day and I needed to let it out but other people have problems they need to deal with and I didn’t want to be a burden. I can’t stop crying and thinking of holding my guinea pig and how he would chirp when I walked through the door after school excited to see me. And how my grandmas last words to me were that a precious smile and how I regret not spending as much time with her I could’ve. I’m an atheist but I’m hoping that my grandma is in a better place holding my guinea pig, not in pain or uncomfortable. Thank you.