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Haphazard

I don't have any idea how so much time passed. There has been a constant spiralling- of my emotions, of what I feel. Help seems a distant idea, I am not sure, help is something I need or if anyone can provide me that so called safe space to vent out what I feel. Actually I don't know what will I tell the other person even if he/she decides to help / save me. I am hitting rock bottoms everyday but that's because I am being unproductive right ? I cannot sleep but that's because I slept in the afternoon right ? I am good for nothing but thats because I never tried to be good at anything right? I am overthinking but thats because my mind is idle, I am just over reacting right ? I cannot cry, I cannot scream out of frustration because I don't have any reasons. I'm just being lazy or whatever. For one thing is sure, I ain't happy. I don't know what happy actually is but even the slightest feeling of being happy is not there in me. I want an out. I want that calm feeling. Demanding too much right?

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Re: Haphazard

You have to define what happiness is. For me it’s laughing at a movie. Singing with a song I like.

I accepted a long time ago no one will ever love me the way I’ll love them. I also realized I’d never be rich. So I do the best I can & enjoy the ride.


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