Hi. Today is my birthday and I woke up this morning crying because even though 2020 is over for most people it feels like it's still kicking me in the guts. So much things are happening right now, a lot of it hang on my shoulders that make me super stressed those last couple months, first my mom got super sick and for three weeks straight we didn't even know if she was gonna survive, and for christmas my dad sent us a convocation before the judge so that he would stop paying child support simply because since I'm handicaped mentally school is hard and his logic is that if it's so hard might as well give up and have the gouvernement take care of me instead. I feel like I'm slowly drowning and yet I still need to keep on going even though I just wanna go in a corner and cry. Or hide under a blanket and never come out ever again. Happy Birthday to me I guess.