I hate myself and my life. Hate everything going on around me right now. The whole corona virus situation is incredibly challenging on me mentally. I just can't see the end of this, can't see how life can get back to some sort of normal. I keep reading about and thinking that I should be grateful for what I have and things could have been so much worse. But is life supposed to be that way? To think that things could have been worse? What kind of life have I given to my child? I wouldn't have planned to have a baby if I'd known this was coming... Everything is super depressing. I'm not able to see joy in anything..it's just doom and gloom. But I know I need to be around for my baby..that's the only thing that keeps me going.