I think my Husband & I are headed for divorce...over politics of all things. We texted each other for hours earlier today and the texts got more and more honest and cruel. We both said things we can’t take back. ...I feel very lost and detached right now. I feel like losing him is inevitable and maybe this was just meant to be. I feel like I have no fight left in me. I am angry and have been so for so many years. I have been slighted by friends and ex-lovers. At 46 is it even possible to start over again? Where would one begin? I don’t even get why I started our discussion...and it just devolved into “I think we should consider divorce.” I mean, where did that even come from?!! We went from a “once in a blue moon” spat to full on end-of-relationship talk...like going from 0 to 2000 in a matter of minutes. I kept waiting for the apology that never came.
15 days ago
Re: Headed for divorce
I’m sorry you are going through this. The reality is that many of us say things in a heated exchange that we don’t truly mean. I know some will argue that’s when we say our subconscious desires, but I don’t think that’s true. I think when we feel furt we hurt back and what really takes courage is making amends and righting wrongs without expectation of reciprocation. So, if you feel bad for things you said apologize. Your husband might not reciprocate but at least you can clear your conscience and know you’ve done what you can to make amends. If you love him, you owe it to yourself to fight for that love. If you don’t love him, then you deserve to find love. Look for love and you will find it.