Forgive me, I'm not entirely sure if this is a sin or not but I must get this weight off of my chest. I have made so many failures in life and rose to the top through lying snd cheating, yet everyone gives me undeserved credit. for the past 3 years or so I have been consumed with my loses and failure that I have fallen into this endless pit of depression and anxiety. I'm on a bunch of drugs but they do not seem to help. I don't get enough sleep and my anger and hatred is festering. Everything that used to bring me joy now brings me sorrow. Many times now I have thought the burden to be too much, I've had to talk myself off of the ledge I shall jump off many times. Thank you for listening, I'll see you when i move on.