Ok. All my life I've been bisexual. I'm also into crossdressing. I fucking love it! I grew up in an ultra conservative white Christan small town. Troubled life, lots of trauma at young age. Mother killed herself when I was 11... Soon after I began experiencing puberty and learned that I absolutely LOVED to dress up as a girl! I could never tell anyone tho. I felt shame disgust self hatred... But I also felt FREE for the first time in my life! Happy. I felt like the real me. I had long hair and was chubby. I had a soft curvy girlish figure. I had little prepubescent "boobs" lol (which I loved to squeeze and caress! lol I was so naughty!) When I put on makeup and lingerie bras and panties.... Good Lord I felt fucking YUMMY!!! I was a cute little girl! I loved it! I cherished the time I had home alone where I could dress up all cute and prance around in front of the mirror and wiggle my little butt and just play and be naughty and have fun! ** Anyhow I realized during puberty that I was bi. I was and still am attracted to females. I enjoy sex with them. But moreso I just want to BE that sexy girl!! SOOOO badly!!!! I wanted to seduce a big strong buff muscular masculine manly man!! I wanted a sexy hunk of a man to sweep me off of my pretty little feet and hold me in his big strong arms and kiss me deeply and passionately! I savored the idea. It felt almost holy, sacred... I was mistaken for a girl numerous times and felt shame but in my secret fantasies I felt like a goddess!!! I wanted to feel my man's beard tickle me as we kiss! I wanted to caress his rock hard big manly arms and chest! Rubbing his muscles, sitting pretty in his lap! Gently subtly wiggling my cute little bottom! Enraptured by the feel of his hands on my plump little cheeks!
**(FUCK YES!!! GOD YES, PLEASE!!)**
I spent an eternity inside my head. Alone in my bed, eyes shut, letting the beloved fantasy run thru me. I can't remember when I first masturbated while imagining giving a man a blow job but I was soon addicted, obsessed. NOTHING could ever feel as amazing as this feeling!! My gorgeous smile, cherry red lips so wet and so plush, so eager. The mischievous look in my eyes as I get on all fours, and crawl to my man! Feeling oh so sexy as I slowly unbutton his jeans, as he removes his belt. Using my teeth to roll his zipper down.... Looking him dead in the eyes, crazy with lust, desire, hunger, urgency...
That perfect moment when he winks at me and blows me a kiss, making me melt! so hot so READY I nearly cum in my panties!! Heart racing, breathing faster, as he slowly reaches in his undies..... And whips out his unbelievably HUGE big hard fat thick throbbing man meat.... My eyes widen I gasp for breath and moan softly in pure awe of the big beautiful heavenly sight before me! I lick my lips my mouth watering goddamn it looks SOOOO. FUCKING. DELICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He whips out his meat and lets it bounce up and down in front of my hypnotized face!! My god it is just INCHES from my face!!! All my life I've yearned for this moment!!!
I finally came to know my fate my purpose my destiny my reason for living.... I was born to suck dick. to swallow cum. to be a piece of fucking meat for REAL men. To suck and ride and get fucked by and worship cock and cum. To be the nastiest naughtiest horniest freaky kinky filthiest sluttiest little cocksucking BITCH who ever lived!!!!
I wanted to be a shemale pornstar!!! The most famous super star in the universe!!! I wanted to be so cute and FEMININE and sexy that I'd make any man want me!! I wanted to take the biggest strongest manliest most macho most alpha men in the world, and have them bow at my feet to worship me like the yummy fuckin nymphomaniac sex goddess that I was! Licking and kissing my lovely gorgeous pretty feet!!! Sucking on my pretty little toes and begging for it to never end!!! Telling me that my cute yummy little pretty toes are the most delicious thing on Earth!! Telling me how sweet I taste!! I get wetter and wetter and can't help but moan and pant and coo, giggling. I adore the feel of these men's warm lips and tongues, as they savor me. My delicious feet!!! I playfully wiggle my toes I rub my feet along their faces their chests... I giggle like a little school girl as his beard tickles my toes while he is enjoying my sweetness.... I shift gears, letting him gently guide my feet lower, and lower... I love the feel of his hard muscular hairy chest at the tips of my dancing exploring wiggling toes!!! I keep going lower, lower, until..... BOING!!!!!!!!! he smiles as he reaches in his pants to retrieve his penis, letting it flip and flop all about!!! Holding me by the ankles, my panties DRENCHED and my toes wiggling anxiously, we both laugh as he seductively shakes his lovely and MASSIVE man meat all over the place!!! It shakes and flops left right left right left right.... Then he puts his hands behind his head all sexy flexing his big strong muscles and waves it UP DOWN UP DOWN UP DOWN.....
Such a wonderous sight to behold!!! Pulsating THROBBING rock fucking hard and easily a full 11 inches in length!!! So thick so MEATY so lovely my body quivers in anticipation, mouth watering, craving this delicious man meat.... He pulls me out of my trance with a kiss, and then he proceeds to QUICKLY RAPIDLY lick kiss suck taste savor my feet and toes like a mad man!!! He licks me he sucks me drooling all over my feet like a starving man as I whimper helplessly moaning and rubbing my sweet tight wet pretty little pink buttpussy!!!! My eyes roll back as I rub and finger my hole harder and faster, moaning like a sissy bitch in heat! Which is what I was!!! Suddenly he removes my toes from his mouth I wiggle them playfully and giggle sweetly and he....... Wraps my feet/toes around his throbbing big hard dick!!!!! Oh my good Lord oh God oh yes ohh FUUUCK!!!!!!!
That's my naughty little secret!! But it's not the WHOLE truth lol you gotta understand my sexuality has grown and evolved throughout my entire life. The horror and self loathing I felt as a naughty young boy..... I didn't realize or understand this at the time, but truthfully, the same way I knew to suppress deny hide ignore the desire and urges I felt.... The thought, for example, of my father discovering me as a girl.... My worst fear.... We were close. Friends. After mommy died I knew I couldn't let him see the real me I couldn't break his heart and bring him that shame.... I refused..
But time and life and years went on and one day I saw the truth: the young horny little girly girl I used to be, 11, 12, 13 years old..... As much as I let the world TRICK ME INTO believing I hated myself.... No!!!! I wanted it all!!! I wanted it more than anything!!!!!! Deep deep down inside my heart mind soul whatever, god help me, I WANTED TO BE SEEN!!!! I wanted to get caught. I wanted my father to discover that his son is a girly little sissy faggot. I wanted him to see me to REALLY see me, Kaylee the vibrant free spirited free loving cute sweet (naughty!) little gurl who was my true self.... I began envisioning him coming home late one night, after partying whatever, and accidentally seeing me in all my sweet little cutie pie glory!!!!!!! I had this scenario in mind; I'm all prettied up, my little preteen tits and ass looking resplendent in sexy tiny bra and panties. My thick long legs my creamy skin, my perfect feet and toes, painted to match my lips cherry red! Tiny tight little creamy white silk satin bra and panties sexy little platform flip flops with the sexy fuzzy red stuff at the toes...
Yeah. I was looking YUUUUUMYY!!!! I was in my bed, on my hands and knees, delightful feet rubbing together toes wigging fat little ass high in the air!!! I bob my head up and down savoring every inch every heavenly moment
slurping and greedily sucking two boys cocks!!! *( My father, buzzed drunk high etc stands outside my bedroom window, looking in the dark bedroom. He thinks to himself oh wow!! Just look at this cute little bitch! Damn what a fat little ass on her! MMMM, MMMMM!!!! he imagines. Man oh man if only I was 16 again!! I would fuck the shit outta this little bitch!!)*
What he THOUGHT he saw was his son's two best friends, getting head from some little slut/girl/friend from school. He assumed that me, his MALE SON, was being the cool kid throwing a party! Letting his two buds gang bang this little bitch on his bed! He (I, me, the son lol) must be on the couch in the living room with a girl of my own!! He smiles and nods his head proud of his alpha male son!!!
But right then in my most perfect moment!!!!! His smile fades his expression changes as the cold cold BITTER COLD truth becomes apparent and reality sets in. He is in shock yet helpless to look away..... As I pause in my sucking and enjoying these two boys yummy dicks! I raise up off the bed, catching my breath, rising to my feet, I wipe the wet glob of spit and precum off of my lips and smile sweetly, speaking to the two boys. Daddy looks on as he sees what's really taking place....
Oh no oh God NOOO this can't be, that's....... (MY SON!!!!!!!) the man looks on in complete shock in abject horror in morbid fascination.... Eyes widen jaw drops... So many thoughts feelings emotions my son my son is a fucking FAGGOT my own son is dressed up like a goddamn fuckin slutty bitch/faggot/girl/slut/whore/etc
He sees the truth before him.... His young son is dressed up as a girl and is sucking the cocks of the other two boys my son is a FUCKINGFAGGOTCOCKSUCKER!!!!!!!
**(Jesus fucking Christ would you JUST LOOK AT HIM/HER/WHATEVER LOL)*
he tries desperately to shut the thought out but it's no use... My son my crossdressing young son..... god damn she is one sexy little bitch!!!!! He is simply gorgeous. My god..... She looks just like her mother when she was young and happy.... He can't fight the feeling, as a sinister grin crosses his face. Ok. You wanna get yourself all dolled up like a little bitch???? YOUR DADDY IS GONNA FUCK YOU LIKE ONE!!!!!!!!! **(PAUSE/INTERLUDE/TO BE CONTINUED!)***
SO THERE YOU HAVE IT!!! I secretly want to be a gurl. A famous shemale porn star. And I struggle with the reality that I have incestuous feelings for my own father. I didn't begin to see feel embrace this til I was in my mid 20s. But I can't lie to myself anymore.... I want to be a little gurl. I want to be DADDY'S LITTLE GURL. and I want to be his girlfriend and live happily ever after forever and ever always amen.... I've made myself orgasm countless times as I pictured an alternate universe. One where my father "molests" me after mommy dies. Forcing me to live as a cute little gurl!!! We fall deeply in love and live from then on not as father and son but as man and woman....
*(sobbing profusely after mommy died, Daddy getting in bed with me, holding me lovingly in his big strong arms I cuddle up to him my head on his massive chest his strong big muscled up arms holding me gently lovingly he consoles me whispering it's ok sweetie daddy's here hunny shhhh it's ok baby daddy's here punkin kissing me holding me.... Hold me daddy! Hold me tight!!!!!!
The mutual knowing that we are both probably damned to the darkest pits of hell for an infinite number of eternities.... And we don't fucking care we embrace it father son now man and woman Daddy and daddy's little gurl!!! It is taboo it is INSANITY....
and as we make love day in day out dozens hundreds thousands of times we are both in heaven!!!! I was BORN TO BE A SWEET LITTLE GIRLY GURL!!!! and I am eternally forever thankful for this amazing lovely beautiful specimen of a man!!!! The first time I suck him off and he comes on my face on my lips in my mouth down my throat I am HIS!!!! FOREVER!!! he makes love to me CONSTANTLY and makes me feel like the prettiest girl on Earth!!! Ohh Daddy!!! Oh sweetie....
I realize now that even tho I thought I was ashamed and disgusted of my secret side.... Truth is, I wish I could've pranced around like a fucking slutty little girly bitchfag and sucked my father's cock in front of the entire fucking town!!!! In front of the whole world!!!! I take his cum inside me as I swallow his seed in front of God and everyone!!!!!!
He finds me girly dressed up and viciously violently fucks my ass and throat dominating me..... And I fall head over heels in love with Him!!!!
I love you Daddy!! I love being your beautiful baby gurl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!