Hey, i am really trying. It is all getting really overwhelming and hard but i am trying. Online school is like an excuse to have no motivation, Covid is an excuse to not leave the house and covid is also an excuse for my parents to not give a sh!t about me. My mum is a nurse and my dad is a doctor, therefore they work like crazy all the time. One of my friends hasn't gotten out of bed for a week. She tells me all her problems and she trusts me, i care about her a lot and she is struggling with depression but i know she can pull through. I told her i was fine because her worrying about me now is just purely unfair. Ugh i don't know what to do. Depression makes me want to stay in bed, anxiety needs me to get out. School needs me to get my work done, my grandparents need me to eat. My parents need me to be ok. So i act like i have gotten better and things are fine. But it's becoming too much and i'm tired.