i hate it. i hate every single thing about me. i hate looking in the mirror. i hate looking down and seeing the numbers go up. i hate the way you control me. i want to be little again so i don’t have to worry about how much i weigh or how i look. i hate social media. i hate our standards. i just want to love myself. i want to feel loved. i wish i could talk to someone anyone, i am so fucking alone. no one understands. i just want to feel skinny. so i will. i am going to begin my journey to feeling better about myself.