i just don’t want to be here anymore. this is a sick joke. i’m tired. sometimes i don’t even know what it’s like to feel anything anymore. i am nothing, like floating mindlessly throughout the day. i barely sleep anymore, i barely eat, it’s so hard to take care of my hygiene. my doctors maxed me on medication but nothing is working. my heart aches but i stay here for my loved ones. positivity is so hard to come by now.