I've been thinking. . I've always had mental health issues... Since I was a child but I could get by without medication before him.I've never been a violent person before him. I've never been a lazy twat before him. The 4 years I've been with him I've turned into someone unrecognisable. I'm fat as fuck. I've put on 5 stone since being with him. Sheer fucking sad eating.I hate myself. I don't feel any joy. I don't want sex. I want my children to be happy but I'm so scared of losing them I'm still here. With this man who makes me feel so horrible. He calls me names, he makes fun of my health issues and my mental health. He threatens to take my children away. And he would because he's bloody spiteful. I'm stuck. Like a hostage.