I was abused as a kid and grew up in the fucked up system.
But now, I am the type of person the most people want to torture and kill.
Not only that, I am the type of person I want to torture and kill. I have not physically harmed a person yet but have the urges to do so.
I want to get therapy but it involves the risk of someone screwing me over and sending me to jail. I am too depressed and anxious on a daily basis to even work and support myself being alive.
So what am I even suppose to do?