I am really struggling i am having suicidal thoughts and i am scared i hate feeling like this but i am under so much stress it feels like that only thin that i can do to get away from everything. i am scared i dont know what to do. i scared to call a helpline because 1 i dont have a phone and 2 what if my parents find out. They said that they would send me away and i would never see them again i wanna be able to see them i dont wanna be locked away from my friends im scared. please help me. im only 16 and i dont know how to deal with this.