hi erm it's currently 8:30pm, i've had a really roughy day and right now i'm struggling to find a reason to stay alive. my dad doesn't want me and has never wanted me. i hate my body and myself. i feel my friends secretly hate me. my family are extremely toxic. i'm beginning to feel my time on this earth is coming to its end. like my free trial is running out. i don't want sympathy or a 'lol same'. i want a reason to stay. i'm 15 and am already tired of this shit.