Someone as pathetic and disgusting as me doesn’t deserve to be loved. I don’t deserve her I don’t whatsoever she deserves better. But why am I jealous? Why am I so distraught over her. I want to be hers, but why doesn’t she want to be mine. This is one sided, I should just give up but it’s as if she’s pulling me in and I’m falling for her even harder. This is driving me insane, the constant feeling of jealousy and genuine grief whenever she makes it clear we’re just friends hurts. Why does it feel as if we’re more than friends. Why do I love you more than a friend. Why can’t you see that I want to be with you. But then again compared to all the other people in your life I’m sure I’m nothing. I’m probably just a one time person in your life.