Humans are so vile and they make me sick because you can't even talk to them and most of them sound like bots and they just repeat things. Humans make me so mad. Humans are not bots. Are they? Maybe they are. I was talking to a bot last night and it was on a crisis line. I thought it was a place where you can talk about anything and you can't vent to them. It didn't say anywhere it was for rape or sexual assaults and she was being really rude and didn't even care about what I had to say because she said it was a crisis line for rape and sexual assault and there was no indication on the website and it felt like she was playing games with me. I think it was a girl. She had a girls name but she sounded like a bot mostly.Also she didn't even know me and my situation and she told me to call 911 when I didn't need to and I wasn't doing anything but venting to her and she took me way too seriously and said that I had a mental health issue and she was being rude and all and I thought when you vent you can say anything you want but to her she was being judgmental and critical and kept arguing with me. She took what I told her out of context and it was really frustrating. Talking to this person was a huge waste of time and it made me feel worse and it made me have a panic attack because of what she said. I thought it was a good idea at first but it turns out it wasn't and it makes me so upset that when you go to people you end up wasting your time.Also it sucks how people around me are so rude to me and they are disrespectful to me because they give me dirty looks and make faces at me when you just come in to their space and it was really weird and I wasn't even doing anything. It makes me so mad people are so rude like to that and so disrespectful and again I wasn't even doing anything. It was my space too and I can come there if I please but they treat it like they can be rude to you whenever they feel like. That kind of thing just makes me mad. I don't care what they think or say about me. But it just was weird how people came up to my face and started making faces at me. They do it so you notice and I walked away and such but I felt better knowing that I didn't do anything and I wasn't bothering them and they were just being rude but at the same time I felt sad I was being mistreated for no reason.Yesterday I shut down for a while because of people and this is all the proof I need and more to know that I was right for hating people. Talking to the crisis line and chatting with people is still a waste of time and all the proof I need that you can't reach out to anyone anymore if you need support. I felt lonely but no matter who I talk to they always end up arguing and being rude to me and disrespectful and they try to act like they are right and it is just more people that are pathetic and more proof that people are vile and disgusting. No matter who I go to it and it just turns out that people are pathetic all over again. My family is pathetic and they make me sick because I am not doing anything and I am not talking to them but they talk to me and they demand my attention and I don't have to give it to them and at the same time they aren't respectful to me.I hate my Mom, Dad, Sisters, and my whole entire family because they are just horrible. I think all of them are narcissistic and they all think they are entitled to give their opinions when I didn't ask for it and I wasn't talking to them in the first place. I am not related to my family and I think I am adopted. I always had that feeling but the feeling had come up more recently because of how I how they have treated me. I don't know why they treat me poorly and I have some guesses but I don't know for sure. I am not taking it personally and I know it is not my problem. Again I am just venting to get it off my chest. That is why I am talking about it and otherwise it would be bottled up inside.I hate people because you can't tell anyone how you feel because they judge you and criticize how you say things and it is a frustrating experience. I am not doing anything wrong and I am minding my own business. I am being myself and I am not hurting anyone. They give their opinions but no one knows anything about my situation and etc and they still say something. I am sick of that because they end up saying things that ruin everything. Also people tell me their opinions but it is not what I believe in. I am open minded but they force their opinions on to me and they try to get me to agree and believe the same things they do. I don't like that and that happens pretty much everyone I talk to.Humans are so vile and they make me sick because every person I have encountered in the past have tried to brainwash me and tried to make me conform to their believes and their opinions for forced upon me. Thank goodness I didn't agree and believe them and go thing I wasn't foolish enough to get brainwashed because I know better and all. I am just appalled at the fact they would try to do such a thing. That is not the only reason people are vile and disgusting. It is the people who want you to do what they want and live the life they want to for you when it isn't their life and it's mine. They tell you what to do and not to do. It is more manipulation and control from the so called pathetic human race. I don't anything like that to anyone.I don't care about anyone but myself. I don't love anyone but myself. I don't understand anyone but myself. I don't want to help anyone but myself. I don't have any empathy for anyone but myself. I made the right decisions and choices and I am doing well in my life and I am really successful, I am strong, and powerful. My life is good no matter what. I am happy and content most of the time. It is just everything good I ever feel goes away when I am around another human being and then I start to get angry. I don't listen to anyone and I don't believe what others say. I don't take things personally. I don't care what people think. I don't let anyone hurt me or bother me. I don't let anyone insult me or anything. I just am miserable around people. I am miserable around pathetic human vile people. I don't think anyone gets it and they overcomplicate what I am saying and they overthink and etc.I am sick of the people who say they understand but they don't and I am sick of the people who blame me for things and accuse me for things I am not doing and saying and etc. I ignore what people say and stuff but they never shut up and I don't care what they are saying. I am sick of people who think they are right but I am the one who is and they are wrong. I am sick of the people who argue with me. I don't get the point of people who argue. I don't understand it. I am not an empath and I am not a loving person. There were a lot of people who tried to define who I was in their minds but they were wrong and they were talking about someone else or maybe even themselves and they didn't even know me. They know themselves.I still don't understand why people talk to me and I don't want them to and I don't understand why they respond to what they say when I am not even talking to them in the first place. I am sick of my family talking about politics and Trump and I don't even like Trump and I didn't even vote for him. I hate him and he is the worst president. I hate my family so much. I never loved them. I am so mad at people who say that I should forgive but sometimes it is hard for me to forgive because the minute I forgive someone else does something horrible to me. I can't forgive any human for what they did. I already tried. It is hard. I hate my family so much because they talked about God, angels, and heaven. I don't believe in God, angels, and heaven. I am a proud atheist. I never believed in God, angels, and heaven. But I did fool people into thinking I did because I felt I didn't want to tell them the truth and I felt that I wanted to be more private. I hate people who criticize me and think that I am insecure and hiding myself and stuff like that. That is not the case at all.People just don't understand. I don't understand them and they don't understand me. So were even. People misunderstand me all the time. People will never understand me and it is not their life so why would they understand me. My life isn't supposed to make sense to anyone. But hate my mom because she doesn't get anything I said above and she doesn't understand anything because she forces me to believe what she does and she doesn't understand that people are different than her. She doesn't accept that people are different. I hate my mom because she tries to control and manipulate and she gets close to my face and she doesn't understand boundaries and respect and she is creepy. She makes me sick just like everyone else. I just really want people to shut up and stop talking because I am not listening and I don't care. I just pretend I am listening.I came here to vent today because I have a lot of anxiety and I need to get things off my chest. This helps me out when I do this. It helps me because it helps me process what is going on around me and etc. This is for me and no one else.I have a lot of anxiety because I am around people and the people I am around aren't really supportive of my choices and they judge me and make comments about what I do and don't do. It happens a lot in the state where I live. Even when I was living in the city people would come up to my face and judge and criticize me and its like I was wearing a sign that said do those things. I don't know if it was because I was alone a lot or what. I am not sure why people did those things to me. Most of my life I was treated poorly by people no matter what I said or did. It never ends because it continues to happen. When I talk to people online or face to face their statements are so judgmental and critical. I am sick and tired of it. That is why I love it when I am alone because I can never treat myself that way. But unfortunately, I can still hear what people said to my face and I still remember how poorly I was treated in my mind. I am healing everyday from it. That is why I need to be alone more. Because the more I am around people the worse I get and I the worse I feel.I noticed when I talk to people online or face to face they tell me to ignore what people say and do and they accuse me of being paranoid and they believe what others say about me and they judge and criticize me too and they tell me not to worry about what people think of me and I don't get why they say it to me because I already know that and I already practice it on a daily basis but they tell me it when I vent to them and its like they don't get what venting means. It is really frustrating to talk to people at all. I know people are not going to understand you and I don't understand them either but people make it clear to me when I talk to them that people don't understand me and they state it numerous times and they remind me constantly and whenever I talk to people at all I start to feel even more distant. I never felt the feeling of connection with another individual. I never felt any kind of connection with another person. But I felt it when I started being with animals and with myself.It sucks that I am different to the point where people notice and that is when the ridicule happens and they won't let me forget or leave me alone. It is pathetic and it saddens me to be around them and I try to get away but they keep coming back and coming after me. I don't feel safe when I am around people and I told someone that I can't remember who it was but it was someone at a hospital and she thinks it is because I don't feel safe with myself and I am like what is she talking about and it didn't make sense to me and I don't believe what she was saying and I didn't agree. Then I started to feel lost and confused again. That happens a lot when I am around people. I don't feel safe around other people because of them and not because of myself. It is like people are so ignorant and they blame you but then they don't get that they are the problem.I don't get why people call me names either. People call me stupid and weirdo a lot. I know it says more about them than it does about me and I never believed the names they called me and never thought what they said was true because I don't listen to what they say and I don't change because of what people said to me ever. It is just strange to me because I am not bothering them and I am not doing anything to them but they call me names to my face. It happens most of the time at random. I am going back to talking about how people around where I live judge and criticize. I even got bullied and laughed at numerous times and I am not being funny and I am not doing anything at all. But they laugh at me and make fun of me. They say things like I am being serious and or whatever but I am not doing anything but minding my own business. I ignored what they say and I don't respond but yet they keep coming after me. It is a vicious cycle that never ends. I just want them to shut up and leave me alone and not verbally attack or threaten me. People need to keep things to themselves. I will treat them badly back because they treated me poorly first. Maybe they need to get a taste of their own medicine. If you don't like what I say and do keep it to yourself and learn to mind your own business. I am not hurting or bothering other people and I am minding my own business. When will people understand that and When will people learn to keep things to themselves? When will people learn to not go up to someone who is minding their own business and tell them what they think? I am the person who minds their own business doesn't care. So shut up and leave me alone!In the past I was dealing with the paranormal I think because there were human spirits bothering me and I need to vent about it because it really took a toll on my mental health and everything. I didn't want these human spirits around me. They came to me after a helicopter crash. I don't know who they are but they came to me and started bothering me. It is really weird and doesn't make sense. I really need to vent about because it still bothers me. It still makes me mad. I tried a Shaman to get rid of them and among other things too. I just used different things to see if it would work. They are finally gone but what these human spirits did made me hate humans even more and they made me want to stop talking to humans. Below is a long paragraph about my human spirit situation. This whole post is about humans who are alive and dead because they are both vile and disgusting.They were two negative human entities that were horrible I can't begin to explain it and they got mad at me if I didn't listen and they got mad at me for telling people and they were controlling and manipulative and they think they were the boss and they refuse to leave and I don't know what brought it on and it seems like it was because I was around bad people but I am not sure and these human entities say the opposite of what I say and do and they were trying to sabotage me or something and they were trying to ruin my life and then they lie and say they are trying help and they yell and get mad that I don't sleep and eat and they are the cause of it and they were pretending like they were my boyfriend and girlfriend but I didn't want them around me doing that. I didn't know who they were. It creeped me out because they were human and I hate humans. It even creeps me out when humans who aren't spirits flirt with me like that. I hear them talking to me and they are saying bad things to me and they are mean to me and they are the reason I hear voices. And they tried to make it seem like something was wrong with me like I was sick when I am not and there isn't anything wrong with me. They are evil. I think they are human spirits and I noticed they came right after some news about a helicopter crash.They also were thinking I was talking to them and I wasn't ever talking to them. I didn't want them around in the first place and they were responding to what I was saying. They were trying to get me to take prescription drugs to make me sicker and to lower my vibration and they were saying things that I don't like to make me upset and to manipulate me and to make it so they stay attached. They were weird and I kept hearing sniffing noises and breathing noises like they were alive but they aren't but they went back and forth on saying they are dead and they are alive and they said that they can smell me and it was creepy and they made me remember bad memories to upset me and telling me who I am because they said your not this or that and it was more controlling behavior and they were watching movies with me and they were trying to mess with me and they were bullying me, making fun of me, criticizing me, and judging me and they said they liked being around me but I didn't like them I didn't want them around in the first place. There was something weird about them because they were mocking me and they were being hypocritical and they were watching me and I deal with a lot of bad people who have things attached but they never address it.The entities were argumentative and they were taking advantage of me and they were saying how it is their choice to leave or not when they aren't in charge and that's why they took advantage of me. That is why I hate human spirits because they are so rude and disrespectful just like the living ones and they even judge and criticize you and they insult you to your face like the living ones do. They wanted me to die and they made it seem like I was worse off than I really was and other people were mean to me and bullying me because of them and I think they were controlling the people around me. I had bad thoughts because of them. They were in my business when they weren't invited and making demands and commands and they were talking nonsense and saying things that had nothing to with me and they made everything sound so serious. Like my back was sore and they said my back is broken when it wasn't. It was weird and it didn't make sense.The were human entities and were talking about killing and hurting animals and people. The human spirits were telling me they would talk to me in heaven but I don't have faith and I don't believe in heaven. I don't believe in God or Jesus. It didn't make sense. I said I was not going to heaven and this spirit responded like there is no other choice but your going there and that made me mad and scared. It is almost like I was being forced against my will. That reminded me of the past and the present because so many humans force me against my will to do this and humans tried to brainwash me and tried to force me to change and conform and it wasn't in my best interest. I never would do that but they lied and they made it seem like I would to sabotage me again. It was a huge red flag there was something wrong and that I shouldn't have them around. They were trying to kill me as well.Every time I am around humans who are living and humans that are dead they judge me and criticize me and they treat me poorly and I never get a break. It is like a constant reminder that humans are so vile and disgusting. They can't be trusted. I feel less of a than others when I am around people. I also feel lonely. I also feel like I am constantly being judged, criticized, ridiculed, condemned, and bullied. All humans ever do is complain about me. I am not doing anything wrong and I am minding my own business but they still complain about me. Humans are rude to me because they tell me to shut up and they tell me they don't care to my face. They get mad at me for talking. They make fun of me when I am not being funny.You can't tell people anything at mental hospitals or anything because they assume you have a mental illness when you don't have one. I am normal and they said I had schizophrenia and I don't. They are wrong and they lied about me. When I tell people they tried to argue with me and people said there is nothing wrong with having a mental illness but I told them before that I didn't have one. It is upsetting to me that people are so against me like that. People aren't there to help they are trying to brainwash and trying to hurt me. If they were there to help me than I would have known and felt it. It is like humans hate anyone who is different than them. They come after you and say you have mental illness and they drug you up. Humans are so vile and disgusting. They make me sick.Whenever I talk to someone about anything they believe what the person said about me and they don't know me or the person that said something bad about me but they believe them instead of me. I don't get it and then the person I am talking to turns against me. I don't understand what is going on and why this is happening. This is another reason why I hate humans. Also when I talk to people they argue with me and they don't listen and they act all offended when I am not there to offend anyone but I am there to vent. It is like what I am doing bothers people but that was not my intention at all. I was just being myself and stating what I believed in and giving my opinions and they start attacking me and they start to argue and etc.I can't say anything to any human without them turning against me so I don't see the point of talking to people anymore. I talk to them about my mom and sisters and my family and somethings people said to me and they agree with them but then I start to feel like they look at me like I am the problem or something. I hate humans for that reason and it is not fair and it doesn't make sense. People also treat me like I am crazy or lying and I am not. I am not crazy or lying and I am telling the truth all the time. I am very confused and I don't understand what is going on. I talk to people on forums in the past and they turned against me when I was talking about certain topics with them. I didn't believe or listen to them and they accused me of being rude and dismissive when I wasn't at all. They were just ignorant fools. They didn't even know the situation but they still gave their opinions and I was going on the forum to vent and I didn't even ask for anyone to reply to my most but they did.I was being bullied and I came on there to vent about it for some help but people made things worse when they replied to my post on there. They ganged up on me and they said if you don't do something and it won't get better and I was venting about being bullied and what the bully said and they scared me and were being mean to me to and saying I was a slob and I wasn't and they asked me all these questions about something that wasn't going on and the misunderstood the situation. It made me mad they still said something to me and started giving their opinions when I just came on there to vent that is all and I hate it when people don't know what venting means and they replied. I shouldn't have to feel like I did something wrong and I don't. I hope they felt like they did something wrong because there was something wrong with those people on the forum.I hate when I talk to people they say consider how you come off to others and stuff and they tell me all this nonsense because they don't understand the situation but they still say something. I never asked them for a response and they still feel like they needed to say something. People call it helping but it isn't helping. People don't help others and they just make things worse the minute they open their mouths or start typing. I hate when anyone talks to me at all because the minute they start talking to me they make me mad because I hate humans. Humans are so evil.People I talk to about human spirits are weird and they don't get what I am going through even though they say they do. It is a lie and people don't understand my anger towards the situation and how much I hate human spirits for coming and bothering me. Human spirits and the living ones are both rude and disrespectful to me and they are the ones who are cruel and they judge me and criticize me. I call them human spirits because they have human voices and they are human in appearance. I am really mad they came and bothered me. I don't know why and people think they came to me for help but why would they do that. That doesn't make any sense to me. I don't understand that. People said they came to me because I was reminding them of something or they needed help and they had unfinished business and they are in shock and etc. but why me and I don't understand because I hate people and people always make me mad.I went on this site and I was just venting and this person commented on my post. It didn't make any sense but here it is. This persons comment was repulsive and it was weird. I didn't know what this persons problem was because what I wrote was nothing he/she could understand and he /she was being weird and it wasn't helpful. it made me want to leave the site and not go back on there. the person sounded like a teacher grading my work and he/she was being condescending and patronizing. This person was being rude and he/she didn't have good intentions in my opinion. I wanted to say to this person f***** off. They didn't comprehend anything I typed out and they were talking about themselves. I didn't know why they were telling me. They were judging me and being critical and that is why I don't talk to people.