My former friend turned abuser lives in the same small town I do. I expect to see him at some points. I understand that. But it hurts to know he is still in contact with friends and family. It's been a little over a couple months since I've seen or heard from him. I'm so afraid of him, my body reacts without me. I get anxiety attacks. Nausea, gas, migraines, stomach sickness, panic, and have a lot of difficulty breathing just hearing his name. I truly have been affected by the torment he has put me through. Most of the family and friends don't know anything about what happened. Only one family member has a vague idea of what happened, but I don't think that's the same as knowing. I know it's not my place to say who people can and can't associate with. I'm not saying I want people stay away from him, or not talk to him, or anything. It just hurts to know he's still kinda around, and in control.