i'm 15 years old. (and i know that anybody who is older than me and is reading this, probably thinks that it's pathetic to see somebody so young complain about such trivial things).i'm currently in year 10, and as it's july at the point i'm writing this, i'm going to be entering year 11 soon. finally. i have never been more excited to leave school, especially since i can finally start studying things in college that i actually want to pursue as a career, right?well, no. due to this whole pandemic, schools being shut down and having to switch to online school, my grades have seriously dropped. i've gotten multiple calls from my teachers saying that i'm behind on my school work, and my mother has gotten multiple calls too. as somebody who has attended a school physically all my life, the sudden switch has had an impact, and a large one at that. not to mention, i have to sit my gcse's next year, and i feel like i'm seriously underprepared, so this whole virus really couldn't have happened at a worse time. especially considering i've lived my entire life being told that my gcse's are the most important thing ever, and that i wont get anywhere in life without good grades, which i believe to be true. i feel like i'm seriously behind everybody else and i have limited time to catch up, but due to constantly being told that i'm behind, i've honestly lost all motivation to continue trying. school fuckin sucks. my parents aren't a huge help either, since i've never been particularly close to them, i've never been one to talk about my personal problems, or things that have been bothering me, especially to my parents. and once i do fail my exams? what am i suppose to do from there? my parents wouldn't want a daughter who failed school.the idea that school is the most important thing in my life, has been embedded in my head for so long that if i fail school, there's no point in continuing to live, since i can't get anywhere without passing school, right?