When I was 6 I began to feel sad and scared, and I became afraid of kids at school because they teased me about my turrets syndrome. I started avoiding school, got into a lot of trouble with the law. I feel terrible for scaring my mother with this. But the worst feeling of all is when you realize your now scared of your family, they are my world. I was scared they would treat me the same, now im cold, un-social, and dead to the world. Im now 16, what happened to me.
My mom asks me were did my sweet, little girl go?
I say: I really dont know.
It happened so suddenly, no warning or reason. I dont even know whats wrong with me, its like i dont have sympathy, consciousness, or emotion. It all left me then, I can feel my pain but I cant show it.
Iv tried to tell counselors, but I just end up lying to them.
I tell my mother every thing, but I cant explain its like somethings missing from my mind. Shes now 36 and in a lot of pain, i think shes gonna die soon. Shes my world, the day that she leaves this world, im gonna go out with her.