You must be going through a lot of emotion. Loneliness, physical longing and others. I understand, I wish I could tel you more but I can't...this time I am told to be silent, I wonder if you still hear me tho...
I can't say what I'm thinking or feeling, but I can say:
I believe in your light, don't quit now.
Have faith, don't let evil (temptation, distraction, depression, loneliness, irrational beaviour and hatred) win.
Eat nice food, I hope we eat at the same time.
Warm oil awaits your touch,and your words of faith to be absorbed in it, and to be applied where all the wounds and doors are.
There is a promise in your heart, you can't go backwards. Look ahead at your promise.
I love & miss you, any thing you do I hpe i in gold faith.
I feel the same as you...
I can't say more...but you know...
I Love you so much...