16 days ago
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Him

I have an obsession. It’s like an addiction. I didn’t think you could be addicted to a person but here I am. I think about him constantly and can’t seem to get him off my mind. It’s been a year now and for the first time I stopped texting him. I let my world be consumed by him, seeing his name pop up on my screen would determine if I had a good or a bad day. I had to stop texting him because I found out he did something bad, like really bad. He raped a girl. I thought hearing that would make me loose feelings for him all together but it didn’t, I still can’t get him off my mind. I don’t know if somethings wrong with me, like I’m a good person but all I want to do is see his face again. I don’t know if it’s terrible if I text him. That’s all I want to do. Should I try and keep restraining myself or just give in? It’s so hard not to give in and I can’t tell anyone. Would I be a gas person if I were to text him again? My life feels so blank without him and he never hurt me the way he hurt that girl. I don’t know what to do.





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I have an obsession. It’s like an addiction. I didn’t think you could be addicted to a person but here I am. OH YEAH, ITS CALLED CODEPENDENCY...THE DEEPER YOU GET IN THIS ADDICTION, THE MORE SELF WORTH. VALUE, RESPECT/ CONFIDENCE YOU'LL LOSE..PLENTY OF SELF LOATHING WILL FOLLOW... IT A HARD HARD CYCLE TO BREAK B/C YOU END UP HAVING TO HAVE SOMEONE ELSE DEFINE WHO YOU ARE , AND WHAT YOU'LL BECOME.......I think about him constantly and can’t seem to get him off my mind. It’s been a year now and for the first time I stopped texting him. TRY YOUR BEST TO KEEP IT THAT WAY...I let my world be consumed by him, seeing his name pop up on my screen would determine if I had a good or a bad day.YEP... YOU IN PRETTY DEEP....YOU'LL BE IN A WORLD OF HURT SOON IF THIS CONTINUES.... I had to stop texting him because I found out he did something bad, like really bad. He raped a girl. YOU DO KNOW THIS FOR A FACT RIGHT?...SO MANY CRY RAPE, WITH REALLY INSULTS AND DE-MEANS THE POOR GIRLS , WHO ACTUALLY WERE PENITRATED VIOLENTLY AGAINST THEIR WILL...IT CAUSES GIRLS NOT TO BE TAKIN SERIOUSLY AND BE SCARRED FOR LIFE NEVER GETTING JUSTICE OR CLOSURE....I thought hearing that would make me loose feelings for him all together but it didn’t, I still can’t get him off my mind. BELIEVE OR NOT, I DO UNDERSTAND THAT...BUT IT ALL SO TELLS MY HOW MUCH DEEP SHIT YOUR IN AT THE SAME TIME.. YOU LIKELY DONT FEEL IT / SEE IT.AT THIS POINT....... I don’t know if somethings wrong with me, like I’m a good person but all I want to do is see his face again. AGAIN, YOU HAVE GOOD MEMORIES AND A FONDNESS FOR HIM.. CERTAINLY NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT... IN AND OF ITSELF...BUT WHEN YOU ALLOW SOMEONE TO CONSUME YOU,HAVING ECERY FACET OF LIFE DEPEND ON "HOW" THEY TREAT YOU, YOUR IN A TRAP AND A DEPENDENCY YOU CANT BREAK FREE FROM.. I don’t know if it’s terrible if I text him. AT THIS POINT ... YES!!! That’s all I want to do. Should I try and keep restraining myself or just give in? ITS GONNA BE HARD BUT WHEN IT ALL COMES UNRAVELED, YOU'LL HAVE NO ONE TO BLAME BUT YOURSELF... YOU'LL TRY TO BLAME HIM , BUT YOUVE WORDED ENOUGH HERE THAT YOU KNOW THE TRUTH...YOUR HEART JUST NEEDS TO BE CONVINCED...It’s so hard not to give in and I can’t tell anyone. RIGHT, BUT... THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCE THAT COULD PREVAIL.....Would I be a gas person if I were to text him again? NOT SURE WHAT A 'GAS" PERSON IS? (im a teenior) My life feels so blank without him and he never hurt me the way he hurt that girl. ACTUALLY YOUR DELIMMA IS QUITE COMMON ON HERE IM FINDING...YOU DONT WANNA BE ALONE , WHICH NONE OF US DO, BUT WE HAVE TO MAKE GOOD CHOICES DESPITE OUR EMOTIONS SOMETIMES TO KEEP US OUT OF A SHIT STORM... I don’t know what to do.WELL, .. YOU SAY YOUR LIFE IS BLANK?....YA GOTTA FIND POSITIVE /CONSTRUCTIVE MEANS IN WHICH TO FILL THE VOID HERE SWEETIE...TOO MANY GIRLS , WHO START OUT GIVING IN TO THEIR EMOTIONS WIND UP IN THE PSYCH WARD AT THE LOCAL HOSPITAL..HAVE NO COPING SKILLS AND EVERY LIL EMOTIONAL DOWN FALL RECIEVED FROM LIFE, KEEPS THEM DEPENDENT ON SOMEONE LIKELY BEING VERY TOXIC TO THEM,TO CLING TO, EVEN IF IT KEEPS THEM IN TORMENT AND BONDAGE....ITS A "PIT" MANY GIRLS STAY IN ALL THEIR LIFE... TRUST ME, BEING A TEENIOR, IVE SEEN IT AND LIVED IT, MEETING WOMEN 20-30-40 -50, WHO ARE STILL IN THAT "PIT"....NOT A PLEASANT LIFE IS IT?...IF THIS BOY TRULY HAS RAPED....YOUR EMOTIONS ARE GONNA LEAD YOU INTO A LIFE OF POSSIBLE REAL DANGER AND TO BE A "CUM DUMP" FOR GUYS , WHO COULD CARE LESS ABOUT YOUR LIFE, FORCING YOU INTO SEXUAL SLAVERY OR TAKE A BEATIN...REMEMBER THIS QUOTE, WHICH HAS SERVED ME VERY WELL FOR DECADES....."YOU TEACH PPL "HOW" TO TREAT YOU" ...... THINK ABOUT THAT FOR A MIN.........I KNOW IVE GONE TO SOME EXTREME DEPICTION HERE BUT.... ITS ALL POSSIBLE... AND IN YOUR CURRENT EMOTIONAL STATE.... ITS PROBABLE...ONCE YOUR SELF ESTEEM GETS SO LOW... YOU HAVE TO HAVE SOME ONE ELSE "DEFINE YOU".....YOU'LL HAVE NO CHOICE IN THE MATTER ANYMORE....JUST SOME THINGS TO THINK ABOUT........