I don't know if I'll ever be myself. I don't have the courage to come out and I can't imagine myself out and proud. Sometimes I feel that I'll always will be this person that my parents think I am which fucking sucks because if I tried to be myself I feel like their gonna judge me and I am so insecure .
Its okay to take longer to come out. I believe that one day you will be out and proud. A lot of people have the same problem, so dont forget your not alone!
I know it can be scary but just take your time and try not to be too scared. If you dont feel ready yet, its okay. however, it may lift weight off your shouldrs if someone knew. If you decide to come out, The best of luck to you!