So i've been on this website once before back in mid october talking about a boy that I thought was ghosting me..honestly i feel like i was being dramatic because dude wasn't even ghosting me he just never knew that I actually liked him so blablhablahah yeah..Anyways, I am back speaking about the boy again and other shit. So after october the boy and i stopped texting n shi but we were still friends but I still had this major crush on him. After a month my cousin randomly told the boy that he made me cry and shit because one of my friends in a groupchat got annoyed at me and told the whole chat that I cried over this boy who is 3 hrs away from me and a year older than me...that honestly pissed me off cs i trusted him with that shit never wouldve thought he'd be the one to tell everyone but wtv i called him out and everyone in the gc was on my side and wanted the guy to apologize..(he didnt) but yeah i told that to my cousin so she texted the guy i liked (they're friends) about how I really liked him and shit but yeah he was like what i didnt know omg, so i was like omg wtf i didnt cry ABOUT him i cried because i fell for him so quickly and that i let my emotions get the best of me. I then took the situation into my OWN hands and decided to text him about it because i didnt want him thinking that he made me cry beccause thats not it. He constantly kept apologizing because he never knew i liked him and stuff so yeah i was glad about that but felt bad because he didnt need to say sorry..over time we kept texting and he wanted my number so i gave it to him and since then we've been texting everyday :)...but ofc there is always a downside to things...our messages are so dry and everyday its the same convo over n over again :/ idk how to make things different because i dont want him to think im weird :/ but there are some days where we text about other stuff so that makes me happy.. and i've become a bit more comfortable with him so im just hoping things get better and i can really just be myself. There was a day at like 4am i posted my laptops camera roll because i looked pretty and it was like a collage of pics of me but its almost my birthday so i also put my birthday countdown on there along with a song (dk if anyone is reading or cares but the song was called "Vacation Bible School" by Ayesha Erotica) and the guy i like (i'll just call him "26") replied to my story saying "Cute send me these pls" WHEN I TELLLLLLL YOU I BLUSHED SO HARD AND GOT BUTTERFLIES GIRL NO BOY HAS EVER ASKED ME THAT OMGRGYGGFSFUGAGEF I WAS SO UGHHH it was the cutest thing ever !!!! especially since the day before i saw a tiktok talking about how girls love when guys ask for them to send a pic to them that they've posted so :)))) but anyways i sent 26 the 10 pictures lol and he was like "Thanks bae" which made me smile because like AHHH i really like him :) and then i went to sleep blahblahblahh woke up and dude sends me a "Goodmorningg" text WHICH IDK IF ITS JUST ME BUT WHEN A GUY TEXTS U GOODMORNING IT MAKES ME MELTTTT especially from someone you like but okay THAT made my morning omfg. Honestly skippppp to like ig now we still text but there is a lot of times where he responds late which i dont think much of but i tend to overthink a lot so my brain just thinks "omg im annoying him, he doesnt like me, im weird, he's texting another girl" so yeah great :|. um but today idk i've been feeling super off and he texted me late late, ignored the tiktok i sent him (it was just a random video i thought was funny) but im not gonna trip over that its just LITERALLY 30 minutes ago i was bored and was looking at peoples insta profiles and i clicked his spam, looked at the highlights and saw a girl that always posts on his acct..he says she is just a friend and nothing more but idk it was just weird that she had her own separate highlight on his page..idk im sure she made it herself but i deffffff over thought it and shit..but i wasnt even mad i was just confused like i felt numb to emotions for an hour but whatever she has his pw and im sure she sees his dms..on that accnt she has the pw to he called me bae and cute n blahblahblah so :P{OJUFPij lol. fuck i hate myself LMAOOOOOO

So i've been on this website once before back in mid october talking about a boy that I thought was ghosting me..honestly i feel like i was being dramatic because dude wasn't even ghosting me he just never knew that I actually liked him so blablhablahah yeah..Anyways, I am back speaking about the boy again and other shit.So after october the boy and i stopped texting n shi but we were still friends but I still had this major crush on him. After a month my cousin randomly told the boy that he made me cry and shit because one of my friends in a groupchat got annoyed at me and told the whole chat that I cried over this boy who is 3 hrs away from me and a year older than me...that honestly pissed me off cs i trusted him with that shit never wouldve thought he'd be the one to tell everyone but wtv i called him out and everyone in the gc was on my side and wanted the guy to apologize..(he didnt) but yeah i told that to my cousin so she texted the guy i liked (they're friends) about how I really liked him and shit but yeah he was like what i didnt know omg, so i was like omg wtf i didnt cry ABOUT him i cried because i fell for him so quickly and that i let my emotions get the best of me. I then took the situation into my OWN hands and decided to text him about it because i didnt want him thinking that he made me cry beccause thats not it. He constantly kept apologizing because he never knew i liked him and stuff so yeah i was glad about that but felt bad because he didnt need to say sorry..over time we kept texting and he wanted my number so i gave it to him and since then we've been texting everyday :)...but ofc there is always a downside to things...our messages are so dry and everyday its the same convo over n over again :/ idk how to make things different because i dont want him to think im weird :/ but there are some days where we text about other stuff so that makes me happy.. and i've become a bit more comfortable with him so im just hoping things get better and i can really just be myself.There was a day at like 4am i posted my laptops camera roll because i looked pretty and it was like a collage of pics of me but its almost my birthday so i also put my birthday countdown on there along with a song (dk if anyone is reading or cares but the song was called "Vacation Bible School" by Ayesha Erotica) and the guy i like (i'll just call him "26") replied to my story saying "Cute send me these pls" WHEN I TELLLLLLL YOU I BLUSHED SO HARD AND GOT BUTTERFLIES GIRL NO BOY HAS EVER ASKED ME THAT OMGRGYGGFSFUGAGEF I WAS SO UGHHH it was the cutest thing ever !!!! especially since the day before i saw a tiktok talking about how girls love when guys ask for them to send a pic to them that they've posted so :)))) but anyways i sent 26 the 10 pictures lol and he was like "Thanks bae" which made me smile because like AHHH i really like him :) and then i went to sleep blahblahblahh woke up and dude sends me a "Goodmorningg" text WHICH IDK IF ITS JUST ME BUT WHEN A GUY TEXTS U GOODMORNING IT MAKES ME MELTTTT especially from someone you like but okay THAT made my morning omfg.Honestly skippppp to like ig now we still text but there is a lot of times where he responds late which i dont think much of but i tend to overthink a lot so my brain just thinks "omg im annoying him, he doesnt like me, im weird, he's texting another girl" so yeah great :|.um but today idk i've been feeling super off and he texted me late late, ignored the tiktok i sent him (it was just a random video i thought was funny) but im not gonna trip over that its just LITERALLY 30 minutes ago i was bored and was looking at peoples insta profiles and i clicked his spam, looked at the highlights and saw a girl that always posts on his acct..he says she is just a friend and nothing more but idk it was just weird that she had her own separate highlight on his page..idk im sure she made it herself but i deffffff over thought it and shit..but i wasnt even mad i was just confused like i felt numb to emotions for an hour but whatever she has his pw and im sure she sees his dms..on that accnt she has the pw to he called me bae and cute n blahblahblah so :P{OJUFPij lol.fuck i hate myself LMAOOOOOO 