When am I going to stop believing that he loves me? I mean who the hell can hirt someone thdy love so much and know it and still not care? I mean I'm not perfect not even great really but I am as a rule kind caring and thoughtful. I care so much what he thinks of me and yet when he tears me down I give up all hope. I am truly ready to die. No one can do anything for me I have to do it mtself and im so fucking tired. I jist don’t want to move. I give up. I am hopeless.