I’m in love with a guy who strings me along but also loves me back. I’m a sad, pathetic excuse for a human being for caring and want to jump a bridge whenever I leave his place. The chemistry is incredible. But he can’t commit. I’ve been hurt so many times. I want to kill myself over this dude. It’s so dumb. But it’s so real. I have no hope for real love, and at this point, I don’t believe it exists. Everything is pain. I hate my life.