I've known for years that I am no ones favorite. Honestly at times I feel like I'm the less then the bottom of the barrel. People come, pretend they want to be my friend for something or another but everyone leaves me behind. I notice every time they need help, but theres no one there when I start drowning. I want to end it all sometimes and its so hard to see a reason to live for. I'm so tired of pretending I'm OK when I'm not just because im supposed to always be OK. Ive tried talking to people about it but what good does it do me when everyone acts like I'm exaggerating or they just don't care.