So lately (8 months) I've been having some serious issues with my genitals, I've been to doctors and clinics and no one gives me an answer of the fudge is wrong. I am poor not dirt poor but poor but somehow I make too much to get insurance that isn't going to make me homeless, I suffer from depression as well do to a lot of childhood trauma which leads me to harm myself but since all this started happening, I've been super depressed because I'm in pain 6-18 hours a day sometimes to the point I want to throw up and get light headed plus I've been extra very irritable and I've been extremely tempted to just use the easy pass and punch out early. After months of thinking about it I finally decided I want to go thru with it so I decided to google how to commit suicide quick and painless which lead me on a 49 min video on 300 year old robots. The second time was about a few days ago decided to research again and ended up on a conversation about financial exploitation of employees by CEOs. Just wanted to share that. lesson learned, suicide is just a thought until you make it an action. Find a distraction or search something you've wondered, it might give you a little more time to consider living a bit longer. Am I going to get to that point again, maybe but for now I'm still kicking :D.