I was torn with what to do, how to do.my family were extremely religious, poor, not supporting lgbtq. I was born in a country I don’t want to be born in.i had a disease that made my life difficult.getting bullied at school.things kept getting worse and worse and I wanted nothing more than to die and hope for a better afterlife. I almost tried. But everytime i want to do it i feel this urge to not do it but life kept getting worse and I almost made a decision to do it. To end my life. I suffered from extreme depression. I finally realized that I shouldn’t have fought so hard to make my life look miserable that no matter what nothing will change that will make me happier. If i ended things nothing will change except sadness. I finally realized to stop looking at your past as horrible and instead to seek happiness as it is to accept that no matter what if you give up it will never be the solution. That no matter what if you try to be happy and search for it and never give up, it will come to you no matter how difficult the rode can be.