Honestly, my life isn't bad. I have a nice family, and somewhat good friends. But for the past 2-3 years, I have been feeling very depressed and anxious, and my anxiety increased drastically in 2020. I'm never in the right state of mind due to my mental health worsening. For instance, i'm always anxious, angry, short-tempered, emotional and i constantly worry and get anxious. The problem is that my family doesn't seem to understand the severity of my anxiety. They stay by my side during my panic attacks and then suddenly expect me to get better once i calm down. When my panic attack is too severe, i start feeling breathless, sob uncontrollably and even want to scream, but my parents, out of stress i assume, start yelling me because i'm 'exaggerating' or i'm overdoing it. This triggers me a lot. A second problem is that they immediately feel attacked when i speak because i'm a loud person and respond quickly to things. However, I reply bitterly sometimes because they're unknowingly provoking me, and they brush it off or try to challenge me when i tell them they are. I'm always (or rather most of the time), the one that takes the blame simply because of my attitude. I'm the kind of person that worries a lot, however i've been told that my actions are bothering everyone and that i'm being frustrating and bothersome. That really triggered me considering my bad mental health. Whenever I'm happy with my curly hair, they either tell me to tie it, or straighten it as it doesn't look so presentable, even though it's the only thing i love about myself. When i tell them i prefer my natural hair, they tell me it's not presentable at all. I've already had enough childhood trauma because of friends bullying me, making me feel left out, putting me down, and competing with me even though i am not doing so. Now that i'm in university, i thought things will get better but it doesn't seem so. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lifeless.