I just ended the most intense two year friendship I've ever had with someone and I feel like a part of me died.Here is the thing. The damage began a few months ago, when I had told him I wasn't feeling well and couldn't hang out. Now, what a normal human would do after that would be to leave the other person for a few days to sort themselves out and then check up on them. Be like, hey are you okay? or something like that. Well, he didn't do that. He was mad I was being an inconvenience. So the last time he invited me to hang out, I was a bit passive aggressive, I asked him a question and he didn't answer within an hour and I just said "I see you're not too excited to see me" and he got really mad and insulted me and told him to text him when I was basically less crazy. So I said 'k'. He knew I hated it when people replied with 'k' because I thought it was extremely passive aggressive. Yet, he would often do that, disregarding completely what I had said. Anyway, after that k, there was a month and a half of silence between us. He didn't text and I didn't text, mostly because everytime we would get into an argument and he wouldn't talk, I would be the one to do the first step to approach him. So I was tired, he was disrespectful towards me and didn't even care. I felt horrible and would cry and suffer for a long time. So this time I decided to wait for him to make the first step. He didn't do it. He would go out with his other friends, post pictures of them having fun. Yet he couldn't even text a simple "what's up". So I decided to pull the plug, because I knew he wouldn't do it himself. I deleted him from all my social media, erasing every trace of him. It hurt so much. Then, after he saw I had deleted him, he did the extra step to block me (!) and even texted me after 50+ days of silence, only to wish me "good riddance!". Like I said, I feel as if a part of me has died. The love I had for him.... I went through hell for him. I had never trusted someone like that before. It kills me that things turned out like that. I won't block him. I won't fight him. But I can't forgive him because I'm still suffering. I just needed to vent.