<p>My brain is mentally, tired. My body physically aches day to day. I can’t help but to feel like i’m driving my self in a hole some days. All i do is work. It’s not fulfilling or fun. Just work. I do it to make ends meet, but i hate what i have to do. I hate that i have to work under someone and over work my body for 7 days a week straight most times. It’s been like this for nearly a year now. I want more for myself but i don’t know how to get it. I have so much potential but sometimes i feel like i don’t have the support i need to really want to reach my goals. I try to continue and just push my self but there’s nothing like genuine support . But i don’t feel like i have that sometimes. I work my ass off and i feel like it gets me no where . in any aspect. I won’t ever give up on myself but i’m having trouble finding out who i am. What my purpose is and where i’m going to be. I think about the future so much but i know that’s apart of the problem because i just say fuck what’s going on now. In reality i could be gone tomorrow and i feel like i haven’t done anything. But on the flip side of that ... i’m young. 22. I know everything is coming but there’s always that sick doubt that I won’t. I just want to shake the insecurities i have over my shoulder. I want to feel confident in everything i do. I want someone to understand me and my mind as well. I’m so misunderstood because people tend to think that i’m stronger than what i really am. I’m solid. I don’t fold for anything, I’m firm with my words and i mean everything i say and people recognize that but that’s my weakness. My biggest weakness. Because so much shit gets thrown at me. I don’t fold so i don’t let things bother me, until they do bother me. It builds up. It turns into anger. I’m so fucking angry and i just want somebody to recognize it. I don’t want to fake how i feel anymore because that causes more problems. It’s a never ending cycle i feel like sometimes. But i just need someone to recognize me somewhere. Not just on some average shit. i come from nothing. Shit, materialistic things never meant anything to me but i just want someone to make me feel good on the inside. I’m so tired of carrying hurt. I want to grow and change too... </p>

My brain is mentally, tired. My body physically aches day to day. I can’t help but to feel like i’m driving my self in a hole some days. All i do is work. It’s not fulfilling or fun. Just work. I do it to make ends meet, but i hate what i have to do. I hate that i have to work under someone and over work my body for 7 days a week straight most times. It’s been like this for nearly a year now. I want more for myself but i don’t know how to get it. I have so much potential but sometimes i feel like i don’t have the support i need to really want to reach my goals. I try to continue and just push my self but there’s nothing like genuine support . But i don’t feel like i have that sometimes. I work my ass off and i feel like it gets me no where . in any aspect. I won’t ever give up on myself but i’m having trouble finding out who i am. What my purpose is and where i’m going to be. I think about the future so much but i know that’s apart of the problem because i just say fuck what’s going on now. In reality i could be gone tomorrow and i feel like i haven’t done anything. But on the flip side of that ... i’m young. 22. I know everything is coming but there’s always that sick doubt that I won’t. I just want to shake the insecurities i have over my shoulder. I want to feel confident in everything i do. I want someone to understand me and my mind as well. I’m so misunderstood because people tend to think that i’m stronger than what i really am. I’m solid. I don’t fold for anything, I’m firm with my words and i mean everything i say and people recognize that but that’s my weakness. My biggest weakness. Because so much shit gets thrown at me. I don’t fold so i don’t let things bother me, until they do bother me. It builds up. It turns into anger. I’m so fucking angry and i just want somebody to recognize it. I don’t want to fake how i feel anymore because that causes more problems. It’s a never ending cycle i feel like sometimes. But i just need someone to recognize me somewhere. Not just on some average shit. i come from nothing. Shit, materialistic things never meant anything to me but i just want someone to make me feel good on the inside. I’m so tired of carrying hurt. I want to grow and change too... 