Hush your mouth. You will not speak now.But what of my questions? The ones that burn holes in my soul, the ones I need answers to.. The ones that will make sence of this crazy world.Hush your mouth. You will not speak now.But what of my answers? The answers to the questions I wish you asked, The answers that will make you understand.. The ones that will let you see the world I do.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my complaints? The things you do that kill me a bit more every day, the things you keep hidden from everyone but me.. If the world could see, maybe the world will take me away from you.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my warnings?? The ones that would have let you live a better life, the ones that would have saved you from me.. I tried to tell you, but the words of a child are always hushed away.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my blessings? The blessings I would give if any were due, the blessings that stem from the love I have for you.. Call me a blessing once again, even when all you see is a curse.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my praise?? The praise I give myself, the praise that keeps me going even when I'm down.. It means more than you think, the fuel for my smile, the spring in my step, if only you cared to notice.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my voice?! I have a right! You will not.. HUSH CHILD!! you will not keep me down forever. One day I will show you. I hope you live to see the day.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my kindness, my caring, my passion?? I am so much more than what you make me out to be. Open your eyes and you will see the man I've become, you are unworthy of all I have to give. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my fears? The fear that keeps the sleep, the same one that brings me to my knees. The boggie man preys on the weak and torments the silent.Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of my asperations?? You will never see the success of all the silenced dreams. My ambision is so much louder than my words!! The dream will continue regardless!!Hush your mouth, you will not speak now. But what of the memories? The ones where you used to hold me while I sleep, the innocence in an indefferant world. Happiness is now only a memory anyway, the past always is. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now.But what of the future? So distant and far, the sunshine to this darkness you trap me in. You won't keep me here forever, I will rise and I will thrive regardless. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now. Yes mother. I will sit here and listen. Listen to your wisdom. I have so much to learn. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now. Yes mother. I will sit here and taste. Taste the bitterness that poars out of your decrepid heart. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now. Yes mother, I will sit here and see. See you grow old and haggard. The silence has not been kind to you. Hush your mouth, you will not speak now. Yes mother, I will sit here and smell. Smell the life leave your body, soon I will be free of this stench.Hush your mouth, you will not wake your sister. Yes mother, I will sit here and feel. Feel the love you have for her. It's the only love I can remember ever coming out of you. My child why do you never speak. Mother told me to, it's all I ever knew. My child, I don't have much time left on this earth, is there anything you wanted to tell me. Yes mother, there was. But the words got lost long ago, and I've given up the search, that paradise is not ment for me. My child, why did you never say so? Mother. You would never have listened. Oh but my child how I do love you so. If this is love, I will die a loveless man. You break me so my child, I never ment to hurt... You.. I.. Lo...... ... And with that first attempt, you hush yourself. Forever silenced the way you intended. ... What of the forgiveness.. There is nothing to forgive. I am who you made me to be. No answers so I figured it all out. No questions so I never doubted anything. No complaints so you never changed. No warnings so I learned from every mistake. No blessings so I lived every day as if it were one. No praises so I learned compassion. No voice so I would always find wisdom in others. No kindness, caring and passion, I don't need words to be contempt. No fears because I conquered them on my own. No asperations so I did everything the best I could. No memories so nothing could hold me back. No future so everyday was a gift! You see mother. There is nothing to forgive. My life is better now because of you, you did your job, you birthed me, you sheltered me, you schooled me. The lessons I learned in silance, are the lessons that I will hold dearest. Once I thought I hated you, but now I realize that the quieter you are, the more you can hear. And in the deafening silence that you now endure, Will teach you many things mother, maybe in your next life you would have learned to love me back. The same way I have learned to love you.