Every day I wake up next to a woman that I love, in a house that I earned. I go to a job that I have strived and sacrificed so much for, and it has payed off. Why do I have nightmares every night, about everything being wrong, why do I feel so out of place. I have been run through it, beaten, physically and mentally and come out the other side. I never want someone else to feel or experience what I did to be successful. I want the people that I work with, that are my friends and peers, to find success. But I dont know how to teach the current generation. In order to give them the skills they need, I should be tough, but their success should not be something that makes them feel like I do. I have this very polarized view, I want to train strength, without the expected need of dominance, or at least, the display there of. I have based my entire career on trying to read people and giving them every tool they need, to make us all successful. Why don’t they want it, what have I been doing wrong. I wish I could be honest for their own benefit, but I am afraid of becoming an hr issue. I wish honestly wasn’t a punishable offense. It can be so productive.