I am empty and numb. My brain is so overwhelmed with pain and sadness, it has decided to shut down. I am so lost and trapped at the same time. I am drowning in sadness and no one can see it. I want nothing more than to just curl up, go to sleep, and never wake up. I will not actively kill myself but I will not stop it from happening. If a gun was pointed at my head, I would close my eyes and smile knowing the end of this pain was near. I am numb. Nothing can fix me now. I am broken.