i genuinely don't have any friends (aside from one internet friend and some girl from wattpad :/ ) and i highly doubt they care so im here to tell no one just because im excited. i know no one comes here to read, everyone just comes here to pour out their emotions but still :)
today I was going shopping with my dad and while we were walking he said something about a boyfriend. i said, why not a girl? he said its 2020 and love is love and it made me hella happy inside sjjsjs,,,
i said i had something to tell him but then i panicked since he's Christian and he said the love is love thing in a sorT Of sarcastic??? way so to give myself time and decide if i actually wanted to tell him i started rambling about how it's stressful and i dont know if im actually gonna tell him
we got to a park and sat down on a bench to have a break. he was talking about something else until he said, so what did you have to tell me? i decided that i need to take risks and tell him. i asked him to promise me to not tell anyone else and then i took a deep breath and said
i like boys AND girls.
im not exactly sure what he said at first because it was really stressful and i couldn't focus but he accepted me at first and then said, you're still young and you have time to figure it out.
that's when i started crying because I've known i was bi since i was 9 and i thought he secretly wanted this to be a 'phase' and me to end up being straight later on in life. i said that to him and he made jokes about it making fun of how I've been pretty much stalling for years and i laughed a bit.
i said i thought he was gonna be mad and he said,,, am i supposed to be mad? it made me cry even more because i realised how fucking lucky i am that my dad actually accepted me since it could've gone wrong in SO many ways. i hugged him and cried for ages. god i probably looked fucking insane just sitting on a bench crying but i literally couldn't believe it.
after a few minutes i finally stopped crying like the bitch baby i am but i couldn't believe what just happened. its been a few hours and i still can't believe it. it felt unreal. I've been worried about this for years and years and finally i came out? I'm really fucking proud of myself :)
I've been planning to come out to my mum next week because i thought she'd be the more accepting parent but literally completely unplanned, i came out to my dad. i was planning to never come out to him that's literally how fucking scared i was but i did it
I FUCKING DID THAT HOLY SHIT