I'm currently fighting with my girlfriend, I don't know how many times it's been.. When I do anything and everything I can for her I just can't seem to see that light for me at the end of the tunnel.. I want to be with her but I just feel so controlled sometimes to where I'm afraid to do something I had planned or its out of her enjoyable comfort zone. I'm trying to help her through this manic phase but getting abused and the house being trashed I can't take much more of.. I'm out of luck because the most positive solutions everyone would give me have already been played out and its just threats of suicide and I don't wanna involve the cops for her sake because I do love her but I don't know how to get through this day by day unknowingly what's gonna happen and I love for her life more than I do mine. I just don't want mine to be out of the picture and just be used and neglected for overwhelming support. I just needed to have this out of my mind because I'm scared and I don't know how to get at the end of the tunnel.