I've been losing my will to live, I don't know what will I do with my live.
I always thought that I am just a burden for my surroundings, I mean there's a big possibility they secretly hate me, right?
I kept pushing people away, while the only thing I wanna do is to be surrounded by them, I want them to be here and tell me "hey, don't worry, we are all here for you, you are matter." haha too much to ask.
everytime I open my eyes I just think what can I do to make me feel better, to make this situation better, I'm just lost.
I wanna be better or gone.
if you ever read this somewhere, thank you, I just wanna share I've been feeling this whole time.