My boyfriend of a few years has been lying to be about his Porn Addiction.

He calls it that, so please don't assume I'm just some bitter girlfriend. Throughout the course of our relationship, I have been faithful, followed the rules and been the sweet girlfriend watching the world go by as I'm standing behind, cheering him on.

When we met much younger, I was this shy, quiet girl. Fast forward to college, and well, I'm a raging feminist.

He finally confessed he never really worked on "fixing" that addiction. It felt like a slap in the face to me, I would occasionally ask about, he would deny it. I feel like searching his phone is a violation, so I just don't.

For months I've been harboring this uncomfortable itch, knowing that I am not anything like the girls on Pornhub.

It bugged me, and I finally gave in and hooked up with someone. It was liberating.

Before this hookup, I had only ever had sex with boyfriend.

I don't know what to do, I just need to think before I act.

But what I needed the most was someone to tell.