I'm tired being fan. I mean I'm not tired being fan to my idol but I'm tired how fckup the fandom is (not in general, in my case only). We all fan here but why I feel like it is a competition? I'm not jealous or Insecure but It is so Insensitive that they are just focus on the fans that will just benefit them. I mean yeah we're not special bcoz we are the type who support their idol in a calm way. I get that we are not famous like the other fans but heck, why would u make a group chat if u're gonna ignore us? Time goes by I'm losing interest to try my best to interact.. but I will never give up on my Idol. I dunno.. maybe the fandom is not the problem but the people in it. I really wish to have a friend who I can share the same Interest in.. I wish.