I've liked someone before, but I never ever think about getting together with them. I don't know what's up with me, but the thought of getting into a relationship is so terrifying. Commitment issues maybe? It just makes me worry. All of the relationships I've been in were with people that I never liked as someone more than a friend, and to those who I saw as more than a friend, I never told them because I knew I'd lose feelings for them if we somehow got together. Right now, I am currently 13..so it makes sense right? The idea that maybe I won't be so scared of it in the future comforts me. My boyfriend is talking about how he wants to live with me when we get older, and have sex rn..The idea of sex is disgusting and I'm honestly never in the mood for anything along the topic of having sexual pleasure with a partner. I'm only in a relationship with him and accepting his ideas because I don't want to hurt him. I want to be able to tell him how I really feel, but even if I try, I can't. I know all it takes is a few copy and pastes, or just clicking on a few keys to tell him, but I am scared of everyone's reactions. Strange enough, I was the one to end all of the relationships I've had in the past. I don't know how I did it, and I don't know why I can't do it right now.