I Don't think I ever did, I have never been important to any living soul. Shunned by my mother, abandoned by my father and have a sum total of 5 failed relationships.
No true Friends to speak of.
My only joy is my son an my dogs but even these relationships are strained at times.
Had a huge argument with my partner last night, I know he hates me, but he won't admit it out loud.
Were supposed to be married next year but I feel that's a failure in the making.
I'm currently numb to my own existence.
I dream of no longer living, to truly be deleted from this place.
I cry as I write this, because I can't abandoned my child, I could not put that emotional strain on him.
so I must continue to feel empty.
I don't know what to do anymore.