The rape I experienced was not as bad as what he done to the other underage girl, I know. I know he only went inside me once as I got off him because it hurt and didn't want him going in again. I'm sorry I didn't realise what happened till I heard about the story about the other girl. I haven't lied about what happened to me though. The logic that I know have is: if you get stabbed once and die or 20 times and die, did you still die? I was penetrated anally once and she was penetrated many, but did we both still die inside? I still feel selfish about how I feel though. It's like, I should be happy that I got it easier. It's like my mind is split into two parts which are both conflicted with each other. I hate it.