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I don't know what to do

I want to kill myself. I have a deep desire for connection, and seemingly no outlet. I'm severely introverted and depressed, but I put on a facade and I'm generally a pretty likable dude. at least I used to think so.

I have been reaching out to people to no avail. the only people I can rely on are my dad and my therapist. my sister is kind, but extremely unreliable. I thought I had a couple of friends who I could connect with, but they are hanging out with each other and then lying to me that they're too busy to do anything, or they slept in, or whatever. I literally want to kill myself, and everyone is too busy to have a conversation, or even answer a text.

I don't know what to do. the people in my life are selfish and unreliable, and there are no other opportunities for connection that seen available to me. I feel like I can't be happy without connection, and I don't want to live if I can't be happy, and connection isn't available for me.

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Re: I don't know what to do

You are loved no matter what you believe or what your brain makes you believe. The world needs you, I promise it will get better like everyone says, keep fighting, you will be very proud of yourself at the end. You will be an inspiration to others. Tell the people you love that you need them and that you are in a very fragile state of mind. It's no shame to ask for help when needed :) I wish you the best-remember the world needs you WE need you