On the outside, I’m a normal girl, with everything in place, good job, nice car, boyfriend of 4 years. but really I’m not that person that everyone thinks I am. I get High every day to forget about how bad my life is. I try to escape the reality I try to be positive and work on myself, practice LOA to manifest what I think will make me happy, but it never works and I’m left feeling in a whole. I have no passion in life. I’m not good at anything in particular and I don’t have any real skills. I feel slot of pain inside from past experiences so much, I need help letting go. i cry almost every day, and nobody knows, nobody knows how I feel, nobody knows I’m suffering. Everyone thinks I’m a happy girl with every thing living in fairy land. Please help me let go, please help me be a new and better person, please help me find my calling my passion my reason for being here and getting through this.