I don't want my family to die.
Each day feels like one day closer to losing them, they're not that old or sick. Well, my mom is actually very sick due to stress but I think this is more due to the fact I hear them say it everyday, "You'll do this when we'll die too". "You'll regret this when we're gone."
I feel terrible that they ever felt the need to even say that stuff. I shouldn't be like this but it's like I can't help it. I'll sit in my room feeling horrible for not talking to them more but I wouldn't be able to get myself to get up and actually sit with them. It's almost as if I'm physically unable too. Don't get me wrong, they're not abusive.
Something is wrong with me. I know I'll live to regret these days and it's a horrible horrible thought.