Ive wondered and pondered for the longest time wondering if all there is to life is just expectation, I go to school , stress , cry , hate myself, where im expected to balance every subject , get good grades at the same time find out what future job i want. It seems like all there is to this life is to go to school for years till you're 20 , be graded , assessed on how good you are at something to then be thrown into life of work where for the rest of the years you work till you're too old to work. You think when you retire you will lead a fulfilling life of being able to be free to an extent , to actually enjoy life as you were meant to. But no longer can you run as fast , no longer can you do the things you were able to do as a child. You then live to die. The expectation is to be able to balance for the rest of you life , work , mental health , when you gotta eat , piss , shit or when you need to socialise. No matter what there is an expectation , no matter how many years in the future we will be we will never be able to be free of it all.