At this point I would let myself get run over or accidentally fall from a 20 foot building but I can't do this shit anymore, I'm tired of being stressed out, being anxious and nervous all day, having that cycle repeat until this school year ends. I haven't even finished most of my tasks for the week and it's Friday, not even deadlines scare me at this point, only phone calls from a fellow student or a teacher, I'm scared of opening my social media accounts that one of my teachers will remind me that I haven't submitted some requirements, and I just can't do it with this system man. I won't learn anything from 2 pages of text and 20 pages of questions and quizzes. I'm afraid to tell anyone that I can't adjust to this type of "learning" and if I tell my parents I would feel like a complete failure, imagine being a good student from your first years to 9th grade and all of a sudden you become worthless. I'm scared that someone will ask me "What happened to you? You used to be---", because the truth is I'm no longer that, I'm nothing but a sack of bones bringing waste to my family. I can't even do shit properly anymore, and by the day I'm getting thinner and thinner, I sleep at 5 am and I skip breakfast, I wake up at 12, try to do school tasks but ending up failing miserably, try again in the evening, fail, repeat. Even my parents agree that no other family will resort to taking this type of child, so why can't I just not exist anymore?