When people asked me everytime about my love life, if I am seeing someone, if there's someone or anyone I'm interested in, or is there anyone at all that I could've fallen for. I would say no, I am not interested in being in a relationship. It's not because I'm better off being alone or single, it's because I don't want to put that person in pain when I finally kill myself or succumb to my illness. I swear to myself that I would have never fallen in love to anybody, but there's this one person that I've fallen for no matter how hard I try to deny it, what's worst is that they share the same feelings for me. I keep telling myself that I would only be leaving this person with emotional wounds and I am not worthy of their love. I am torn that whether I die by my own hands or not, this person would be hurt because of me.