I am a 13-year old girl who has been introduced to inappropriate (p*rn) videos way too early in my childhood.
When I was about 6 to 8 years old, my extended family would usually come over to our house during Christmas to celebrate. My cousins and I were eally close, specifically those who were closer to my age, before I went to go live permanently in another country. Since I was too young to have a phone, I would borrow anyone who did have one to play games and browse through their gallery like a normal kid.
When my female cousin, who was 1 year younger than me and I were browsing through my uncle's phone, we found really disgusting videos on his gallery but I was fascinated by it since I hadn't seen anything like it. We kept watching each of those videos and since we were stupid, dumb kids, we actually tried it. I don't want to describe it in detail because I already feel like I'm going to barf writing this.
We would follow what was shown in the videos and try to copy it as best as we can. Back then, I thought it wasn't much of a big deal for my childish brain but now, I feel so ashamed and disgusting for doing that to my cousin. I wish I could go back in time to never do the same stupid mistake again. The memory keeps haunting me whenever I have free time, it just wouldn't leave me alone.
I haven't told anyone about this because I'm too afraid that they'll think something is wrong with me. This is the only place where I could safely vent.